I see the light

Having a baby has been one of the hardest experiences of my life. I had no idea how much everything would change, and just how difficult it can be. I have to say that I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel!

Parker has been a difficult baby who screamed a lot. He would scream every time I tried to put him to bed, or sometimes just because he was hurting with gas. I would bounce him in my arms around the apartment, which was a great workout, but which also left me exhausted both emotionally and physically. I was at my whit's end.

I decided that I would rock Parker in our recliner to sleep, no matter how long he cried in my arms. I would just turn on a show to distract myself and keep rocking and telling him that I loved him. That way he could know that I wasn't abandoning him, and would give me some much needed rest. Guess what? It's been working! Yes he has cried, but only for up to about 15 minutes. It has gotten less and less. Today I rocked him to sleep and he didn't cry AT ALL.

I also decided that I have to change my attitude. It was getting to the point where Randy would come home and I would be in tears at least three times a week. Ridiculous! I wasn't enjoying Parker the way that I should because I was just so tired from all the bouncing! I know it might not last, but the last two days have been heavenly. I have loved Parker more than ever before, and it has been much more peaceful in our home.

He is getting so big!! 3 months old already! My cousin Kim had a baby just a little bit ago, and I saw him last night. It's hard to believe that Parker was also that tiny! He also giggled for the first time today, and it almost made me cry. It was the most wonderful sound that I have ever heard in my life. Today I love being a mommy :)